What happens in Oxford, stays in Oxford?

This is an extremely personal post for me to upload, but I said that this blog is sort of like a diary for me, so here goes.

I had planned to go and see my friend, Rhiannon, for months. Actually, two years I had been trying to go but something always got in the way, so a couple of months ago I booked a weekend off work and my train tickets and just did it. Skip forward to Monday, and I felt like crap. The week hadn't started great, and it just didn't get better and it was Friday. I just pretty much led in bed all day, I felt ill and just not okay. This feeling had been known all too well for me as about five years ago I felt scared of doing specific things, until about six months ago. I hadn't had that feeling.
I couldn't sleep on Friday night, I was up at 3 and then 4 and 5 and then finally half past six when I had to get up to get ready for my train. The car journey was awful, my parents were telling me how much fun I would have and all I could think was "Am I going to faint as soon as I stand up?"
We pull up at the station and I fight back tears, why was I so upset?! I was only going for one night and I was going to see my extremely good friend! My mum told me to go and I got on the platform to be sat crying. I rang my friend Georg and just explained how scared I was, nonetheless, my parents were gone, my bags were packed and I got on the train.
It wasn't a bad journey, until I got off the train to have to run to a bus that was packed and I had to sit with a three old playing an app on a phone extremely loud and was basically led on me. The first couple of hours were fine, and then as I was walking down a street looking at my friend's university, I felt the feeling again.

I messaged my mum, and she said maybe I could come back in the night rather than the next morning. The idea was brilliant, and I looked at train times while my friend sat opposite me unaware. I felt awful and then we went to Wagamamas, which was the most claustrophobic thing ever. I didn't eat all my food and then we went to the cinema. Before the cinema, me and my mum had still been messaging loads and she told me she was going to come and get me. She made the two hour drive journey with my dad and she told me she was leaving. I had to tell my friend I was going to go home.
I was terrified, I waited until the end of the film and I was completely honest with her and said I just wasn't feeling okay. She was completely fine with it, and we found my mum and dad. I slept the whole way home and have been in bed since. It's 2:35pm. I should still be in Oxford, but I'm led here, eating humbugs feeling awful!

I have no idea why I'm sharing this, I just feel like if I write it down, it might clear my head.

I feel defeated, I feel like I'm an awful excuse for a twenty year old. My friends are gallivanting around the world and I can't even stay at my friend's house. I hope I leave this feeling behind soon, I'm going to have a bubble bath now and see if I'll feel better. 

50 Questions You've Never Been Asked: Tag!

I mentioned before that I wanted to let you guys know more about me, so while I'm having a poorly day in bed, I figured I would do this tag!

1. What's your favourite candle scent? 
Fireside Treats by Yankee Candle <3

2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?
Uhh either Khloe Kardashian or Sprinkle of Glitter, I feel like they'd be good at advice and look after me!

3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?
This one is hard! Maybe Jay Z so Beyonce would be my sister in law?

4. How old do you think you’ll be when you get married?
I want to be between 24-28.. that gives me 4-8 years, oh dear.

5. Do you know a hoarder?
Me!

6. Can you do a split?
No ahahahah

7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike?
Without stabilisers I think I was about 7 or 8!

8. How many oceans have you swam in?
I have no idea

9. How many countries have you been to?
A fair few!

10. Is anyone in your family in the army?
No but my uncles were in the Air Force and Marines!


11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?
My favourite questions! Amelie, Belle, Mia or Evelyn!

12. What would you name your son if you had one?

Ellis, Max or Harri!

13. What’s the worst grade you got on a test?

U haha

14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child?

I loved Tweenies but when I grew up and was older, That's so Raven was the best.

15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight?

I was a witch for like 10 years straight

16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?

Yeah! All Harry Potter and the Hunger Games! Half of the first Twilight 

17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent?

I love having a British accent, but there are so many!

18. Did your mother go to college?

No :)

19. Are your grandparents still married?

Yes, both sets are still married. My grandad passed away at the start of February, but in April it would've been their 70th anniversary. I don't know how long the others have been married..

20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?

No

21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?

 Who doesn't?

22. What’s the first amusement park you’ve been to?

Probably Oakwood

23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?

I'd love to be fluent in Welsh, French or Spanish!

24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray?

Grey

25. Is your father bald?

No!

26. Do you know triplets?

Yes, one of my best friends is a triplet!

27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?

Notebook

28. Have you ever had Indian food?

I have

29. What’s the name of your favorite restaurant?

Nandos!!!

30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden?

Don't even know what it is

31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ’s, etc.)?

I dont even know what that means

32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?

Elliot!

33. If you have a nickname, what is it?

DW, Williams, Wills

34. Who’s your favorite person in the world?

My dad or my grandad

35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?

Suburbs

36. Can you whistle?

Noooo :(

37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?

I used to until like two years ago, major fear!

38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?

I try!

39. Do you take any pills or medication daily?

 I do

40. What medical conditions do you have?

Tonnes

41. How many times have you been to the hospital?

I lose count

42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?

YES

43. Where do you buy your jeans?

River Island, Miss Selfridge, New Look, Primark

44. What’s the last compliment you got?

They said they liked my smile!

45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?

Mhm

46. What flavor tea do you enjoy?

English breakfast

47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?

Like 30

48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?

I won't, they can choose as they grow up

49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real?

7, I remember it well

50. Why do you have a tumblr?

I'm gonna switch this into "Why do you have a blog?" and that answer is because it's my hobby, i enjoy sharing my life and it's so nice to read back!

Wales' One Week Of Summer

Wales has just overcome a massive heatwave to which the temperatures hit 37 degrees Celsius, if that's not even hot for you please be quiet, it very rarely hits 22 in Wales. To make the most of the weather I did a variety of things! 

These photos were taken yesterday, don't be fooled by the clouds. It was still hot, but if you can't spend your Monday feeding ducks with a three year old, how can you?

Me and my best friend Georg decided to go out for some Summer drinks and ended up in town somehow! Still a lovely night nonetheless. 

This is a special day. Me and my grandma, after we had gone for afternoon tea to celebrate her 90th birthday <3

Me and some work friends decided to head out on the hottest day of the year and spend it by the riverbank, we ended up being too hot so headed up to work and spent it under the trees! That night we ended up going out to a quiz that we do every Tuesday :)

Me and my family headed out to a park to have a picnic, the little boy is my godson/cousin's little boy! This was the day before the heatwave and we had no idea what temperature it would be. Jeans was a bad idea. 

This was one of my favourite nights. Me and the work girls headed to the races where we live, we won a bit of money and then watched Peter Andre, so so funny!

My Travel Wishlist

I have always been incredibly lucky in the sense that my family had holidays regularly growing up. I've been to Turkey twice, Ibiza, Zante, Corfu twice, Majorca four times, Paris twice and even the Dominican Republic, and other places around the UK! So yes, incredibly lucky.

But I feel like I'm past the stage of wanting to go on beachy holidays and I want to see more of the world's cultural offers!

1. Iceland

Iceland is the ultimate place I'm dying to go. I think it's so exciting and such a different place that I'm used to. The Blue Lagoon is a place that I have wanted to go since a young child and always, Northern Lights???? YES! 

2. Paris

I went to Paris when I was fourteen with my school for four days, and I saw the most popular sights and went to a theme park. Then I went with my mum to Disneyland when I was seventeen. But I would love to go to Paris again and visit old cafes and see the less popular sights but still incredible!

(Cringe! Fourteen year old Katie is not cute.)

3. Australia

Since I was about nine, I have been obsessed with the idea of going to Australia. Surfing, koalas and the accents just make me want to go so badly!

4. New York

I have wanted to go to New York more and more as I've grown up. Watching Gossip Girl does not help with the desire to go! Shopping on Fifth Avenue, and going to Times Square just screams out to me!

5. Mexico

After seeing so many friends going to Mexico, it soon became apparent to me that I wanted to go too. It has the relaxing aspect but with beautiful views and such exciting things to do, it's a mix of relaxation and adventure!

Disclaimer: Pictures that don't have me in, I found on google, I don't take any credit in the slightest:)

I Eat What I Want, When I Want!

Today's post is a bit of a different one. It's become a recent trend to be "clean eating" or even a vegan. If you're not eating a yoghurt with granola for breakfast or smoked salmon with avocado and poached egg on toast, who even are you? My answer? Human.

I have always eaten reasonably healthy, I ate my vegetables, I snacked on grapes. But in today's world, that just isn't good enough. I allow myself to have naughty treats without feeling bad about them, if I want bad food, I'm going to have it.

Growing up, I found eating harder, just because I was so picky. When I was out with friends and they wanted to go for a certain food, I'd panic and not say anything and just have a side order. I have definitely gotten better over the years as I have had a few health problems which means being picky would essentially be awful for me. However, as social media is being a huge influence on people's food choices, sometimes I sit and think "Should I really be eating this?" I'm a 20 year old girl, I'm not easily influenced when it comes to social media, but I can't help think of younger teens seeing the Instagrams and just worrying.

Grace, from graciefrancesca.com or as she was called UglyFaceOfBeauty, recently did a documentary with BBC3 on the truth about Clean Eating. I highly recommend watching it as it literally opens your eyes to these so called experts on clean eating. Grace does a really good job at it all too!

^That picture makes me hungry. I don't care?

I know what you may be thinking, "You're a gym instructor!!" Exactly. A gym instructor. Not an nutritionist, I am mainly qualified in fitness. Very little of my course was to do with food.

I would love to go more into depth on this topic.. maybe in the future!

Too Faced Haul

When this little beautiful box arrived at my door I straight away was in love. It started when I was led on the sofa watching the telly, and I had an email from Too Faced saying it was free shipping worldwide. Knowing I wanted a specific set from the American site, I took my chance.

I ordered the Most Loved Set and got to choose two free samples, I chose the Born This Way foundation. Which came in a strip and gave a good amount of foundation in a sachet, in three different shades. I really appreciate the fact they did that because usually brands just send a random shade! I also didn't realise this but I picked the Hangover X primer as a tester too, even though it came in the set haha!

The set I picked up included the most popular items from Too Faced in mini form including:

-Melted Lipstick in Melted Fig

-Hangover Primer

-Shadow Insurance eye primer

-Chocolate Soleil Bronzer

-Better Than Sex mascara

I had tried the Better than Sex mascara before so I was super excited for it to be included as I'm running out of my current one. I have also got the Melted Nude lipstick and I adored it so I'm happy for another one of them. Although, the colour is a bit out there, I think I'll be brave in the winter.

The chocolate soleil bronzer literally smells like chocolate and it looks so incredible. I've heard great things about the face primer and the eye primer!

I will update you on what I think :) 

P.S. I'm really sorry I haven't uploaded in a while, I was going to do a post but I haven't got a reason why. I think I want to just keep this as a hobby and if I pressurize myself, I might not want to even do a post! So yeah, when you get one, you get one, when you don't, you don't! Sorry X